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my life sucks?

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 00:59:43 GMT

period
breaking out
swine flu
family sucks
aunt just left for 6 months
3 big projects
feel really fat
friends ditched me
awkward situations
quarintined in my room
friends drama
we're legit broke right now
library closed down
love life sucks, atm.
and more.

update.

^^ yeah katy perry, and adam lamberrtttt.

^^ HES SO HOT.
.. please note, im talking about simon.

^ story of my life

i have recently started to love katy perry more and more

TAYLOR SWIFT IS ON SNL TONIGHT :D

dfgh

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 22:35:33 GMT

its not just the media, its you.

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 03:28:55 GMT

i dont know if the media can be blamed for low self esteem and body image problems.
.. they can, they parade around super skinny girls like theres no tomorrow.

but think of some of the hottest people in hollywood.

meagan fox, angelina jolie(for the most part), pamela anderson, mariah carey, tyra banks, kim kardashian, JLO, beyonce

my list goes on. all these woman are curvy and gorgeous, we're just choosing to admire the wrong stars

nicole richie, lindsay lohan, paris hilton, amy whinehouse, victoria beckham, the olsen twins.

etc.

i love alot of stars on both of those lists.
for instance, i LOVE nicole richie, but honestly, when i think of her i think of her mischivious role on the simple life, then i think of the fact that shes a mother.. THEN i think of her weight.

but i dont think any of them are more famous than any others.

all of them have been trashed for their weight, weather it be too low, or too high.

its up to you how you want to see yourself in this world.
the media has a part in it.
but you dont have to listen to them
love yourselves.

THIS IS MY UPDATE

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 20:40:47 GMT

^^^ IVE POSTED IT BEFORE, I LOVE THIS SO MUCH. I SING IT. OFTEN..

.. i wish i had a cake or something that said this..

OH WAIT.

OH YES ! HAPPY FRIGGEN BIRTHDAY, ME.

dairy queen wouldnt write the dick part, and the 16 thing was more fitting.

^^ real cover

SCARIEST THING EVER? .. maybe cause im like leaning against my wall.

yeah

i've been on this site for 464 days.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 04:14:47 GMT

HAHAHAHAHA ^ read the first one.

ahaha i saved that because somewhere i saw a picture of it and it said " snuggies gone evil " or something.

.. anyway

guess what i got for my birthday..

AN EFFIN SNUGGIE.

IRONYYYYY.
i saved the picture days ago.

i got lots of good stuff, and my friends surpised me with a party..
adriane was there, it was slightly awakward.. but fun.

ill add some pictures tomorrow or sometrhing

thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthdaaay:)

lauryn moved todaay :(
love ya'll

LOVE YOU

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 12:42:10 GMT

i love you guys, i would marry you all and have your babies if i could.

and then we'd live a happy life until i found out that our cat didnt really run away, but you gave him away.

then its all over.

assholes

..no

i love you.

NOT SAYING YOU SHOULD ALL WISH ME A HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY..

but.. you know :)

whatever.

MIDLIFE CRISIS.

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 23:54:08 GMT

^^ heidi and spencer as jon and kate plus 8!

ahahahahaha

small update, will do more tonight.

need to vent.

i am having a midlife crisis..

tomorrow is my 16th birthday.
i am very upset.
ive been crying lots today.
im excited but dreading it.

sometimes i just feel like crying lately, like im so upset over so many things and i just breakdown. .. ive lost so many friends over the past year. my best friends michaela, amanda, adriane and jessica. and lauryns moving tomorrow. its going to be a very emotional day. .. i keep thinking " its your birthday dont cry " - the hills. .. but i will be crying tomorrow... typing this right now i started crying. . i had a very awakward encounter with adriane at the dance on thursdays, we both wern't ourselves exactly.. if you know what i mean. .. and we were huging and missing and telling each other we loved each other and stuff .. honestly, i dont even know how to react, i dont want to be her friend anymore.. i mean this in the nicest way possible, shes a bitch. .. i wished her a happy birthday this year, if she doesnt text or call me to do the same, ill be pissed. .. whatever, i dont know. its weird. and okay whatever.. but im turning 16, which means only 2 years left till im 18 and i have to be out of the house, into the real world. no. i dont know what i want to do. college? work? i dont knowwww ! plus ill have to leave my home, and family, and friends.. so hard for me to do. goodbyes are not my strong point. omg. im just on an emotinal rollercoaster. .. and when i hear the song mad world by adam lambert ( american idol performance ) i think of last year, i hated it.. but i miss it, you know when a song just takes you back somewhere.. and it makes you upset. .. it really reminds me of english, worst class ever. hated it... and, the only reason i liked it is cause i got along with the teacher really well ( when i wasnt skipping or getting in trouble .. even when i did.. he wwent easy on me ) .. he loves american idol, and we talked about it all the time.. and it just reminds me of that classs, hard to expliain i dont know.. also the song right round BY flo rida reminds me of the end of the year last year.. summer weather, i just didnt care about anything anymore. . sitting in the hall at lunch, chillin. .. gotta go to class.. whatever, eff that. dont care.. hard to explain.. kinda a ' you'd have to be me to understand ' thing.. and other stuff, i dont know.. im jsut regretting things and worrying and not knowing whats gunna happen and stuff im scared and uggggh i dont know.

yeah

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 20:21:27 GMT

dfjdjfbsdd

usfsdfsde

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 22:02:49 GMT

that took along time.

the men i love

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 21:57:59 GMT

^ JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE
my first REAL celebrity love.
people know my obsession with him.
friends, teachers, parents. etc.
i love him.

^ JAY MANUEL
i love him, antm / cntm made me love him.
look at that face.
look at that body.
cutie.

^HUGH LAURIE
i only got into house this season
but omg. loveeee.

^DARYN JONES
mtv live canada host.
love

^^ DAN LEVY
THE HILLS, THE CITY, PEAK SEASON AND DAILY AFTERSHOW HOST
ilove this man.

^ ADAM LAMBERT
american idol season8 runner up.
i fell in love with him.
can you blame me?

^^ JOHNNY GALECKI
MY MOST RECENT LOVE.
ive been watching the big bang theroy since season 1, but only started loving him since late season 2.
i google him.
often.

^ SIMON COWELL
i dont care what you say.
(L)

^KEVIN AND NICK JONAS.
nuff said.

actual update coming later tonight, or tomorrow.